Crimson Within

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This Album is dedicated to Lou Reed

CRIMSON WITHIN – The Concept
Once upon a time there was Reality. Then people realized that it was too horrifying and started to live in an imagination. Country yokels began to entertain everyone with their philosophy, and elders began to suck the life out of the lips of young celebrity-seeking maidens. No matter if the clothes weren’t clean or well made, the most important thing was to parade, day after day. Businessmen got a grip on the rules of the game and started to raise fake rebellions, fake needs, fake awards and fake ranks. Everyone started to believe they had something interesting to say and everyone was fascinated by other people’s lives. Yet, not all people had the right to have a say and in the name of freedom a chaos of useless thoughts, filled with sex, violence and silicone, finally arose.I was one of the few who could afford the luxury of speaking my mind, but I was not allowed to. Or at least, not the way I wanted to. ‘Cause when my parents died I saw their blood and I realized that it was not red, but crimson. I had the crimson within. I was different, not just like anyone else who had red blood. My blood was slightly different, it was crimson. I knew for sure, although I couldn’t see it.
Everything slowly changed when I realized that my parents left me alone. Nevermore shall I see them? I was scared; I was too extraordinary for this world. I was an artist. The goddamn shows on TV made ​me realize that even though I was a great artist, I had to come up with something shocking in order to become famous. That was when, as I was feeling fuzzy, I realized that I had to kill someone. A “killer artist” was exactly what I needed to become known. I ran into so many show-offs; they made me sick, they were so pathetic I couldn’t even kill them. But one of them, a woman I met, gave me what I was looking for. She was rich! But by then, nothing made any sense anymore. I did my best to get rid of her,but it was too late. She swore eternal loyalty, and. When I asked if she could kill our children for our sake, she said “yes”. I started to feel like a crawling worm. As if I no longer had a purpose in life. My bloody baby had become the woman of my downfall! I had become you, my beloved! Every piece of my art was like her. We had a family, we had a big house, I had finally reached success. But I felt alone. Did I really need all that space for myself? I hated that damn woman, but I pretended to love her. ‘Cause as long as I was with her, I could be a star. I was trapped in a vicious circle, the more I loved her the more success I had, but the less my art made sense to me. I was going mad. I realized I was unable to feed myself because she didn’t let me feed! I felt like crying and I started to freak out. I was tired, I was spoiled, I needed to disappear and be forgotten. Falling into nothingness.

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released October 1, 2015

Produced by Valerio Fisik and Metibla
Recorded and Mixed by Valerio Fisik @ HombreLobo Studio [Roma 2012-2013]

Mastering by C. Gruer @ www.pisistudio.com

Band photo by Michela Amadei @ www.michelamad.com

Artwork by Paolo Alvano


All lyrics by Riccardo Ponis except 01 lyrics by Alberto Ponis and 03 by Riccardo Ponis and Patrick "Che" O'Shea

Music on 01 - 02 - 04 - 08 - 10 - 12 - 13 by Riccardo Ponis

Music on 03 - 05 - 06 - 07 - 09 by Riccardo Ponis and Paolo Alvano

Music on 11 by Riccardo Ponis and Stefano Tucci

Special Thanks to:
Alberto Ponis, Paola Paganini, Alessandro Emberti Gialloreti, Valerio Lundini, Stefano Greco, Kathryn BEll GReco, Lisa Panari, Erika Filibeck, Vincenzo Piccolo, Franchino, Christian Ponis, Settimio Catini, Valentina Gerardi, Arik Agnesini, Alessia Spagnoli, Joe Zaso, Giorgio Clementelli, Valerio De Lucia, Edorado Luca', Simone Giannangeli, Davide Traffic, Federica Civica, Stefano Tucci, Fabio Recchia, Marco Sutera, Maria Livia Nicotra, Carlo Ferrante, Fabrizio Muccioli, Giuseppe Cacace, Alice Della Ragione, Francesco Giannetti, Giose brescia, Daniele Baldassarri, Flavio De bernardinis, Alessandro Giordani, Marco Varriale, Lulu' Cancrini, Andrea De Gregorio, Anthony Ettorre, Sara Esposito, Edoardo Fonti, Gabriella Paganini, Alfonso Germano', Davide Giorni, Niccolo' Palomba, Elisabetta Lambiase, Susanna Lambiase, Giovanni Lambiase, Marco Orti, Lior Levi, Roberto Macor, Michela Amadei, Stella Njoroge, Valentina Orru', Giampaolo Palocci.

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METIBLA is a one-man project set up in 2003 by video maker Riccardo Ponis (author, among others, of music videos for bands, such as KARDIA, INFERNO, V FISIK HALL OF SHAME) who, basking in his existential sadness and in the signs of a sociopathy that would worsen in the years to come, creates compositions that are hard to define. ... more

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Track Name: soffri per me IN eTeRnO
Ti ho visto piangere mio Dio
Nei ruscelli avidi di mare
Nei torrenti impetuosi d'amare
Nelle cascate plananti petali di pesco
Nelle pozzanghere di luridi vicoli
Nelle fogne ove i sogni finiscono
Ma ora non piangere
ti offro la mia spalla amica
Finché il tempo lo vorra'
Perché tu che non puoi morire
Soffri per me in eterno
Track Name: Crimson Within
I haven't slept since you've been gone
And every day I do something wrong
Waiting for your scolding
Without results


You should be proud of all the tears I cried
You always tried
to be that sort of brand new Jesus
Condemned to live


You've introduced me to a different world
Where guitar weeps and noise is law
It really impressed me
But then you passed away


Our family was too ordinary
I always tried to be the wild child of the wind
To blow against your face
No matter what you said


All the time we spent there
In our private sanctuary
is what I'm trying to forget
I would try to rehab
From those memories


The rock & roll Is the only thing I've got
The more it hurts
The more I like to spin in that whirl
That brings me pain


Now I'm living with my twisted mind
Because only to surprise me
You thrown me away
Nevermore your prey
Track Name: Nevermore
I Just want to be alone
I don't care about the world
All your lies sound the same to me
Try to walk here in my shoes
Try to be the one who'll lose
try to spend a day like me and you will see

All my family passed away
I remember them no more
and I don't even know myself, oh no
Years are running without me
The only thing I care to see
Is this empty box full of memories

Nevermore is what you told me
Nevermore is what you gave me
Nevermore and now I'm feeling
Nevermore so sick and lonely

You load me, you load me down
All the words you say bring me deeper down
You raise me up to put me down
Everything you say just makes me frown

Just one thing I know for sure
No one will write songs like I do
that gonna shake your world through and through
if my dreams have been maimed
I'm not the only one to blame
Fame's what I deserve, for all this pain

I know I have to find a way
I can’t stop knocking at your door
Somebody show me the direction home
If you don’t know where to go
You’ll never ever reach your goal
Stuck forever, waiting in this hole
Track Name: Your Goddamn Show
I Hate to watch your TV show
Where you play shit that they call gold
And everything tastes so old

I'm pretty sure that I won't fail
My songs are better than this shame
I really have to find a way

To show the world who I really am
If only I could have a chance
I'm sure that I would kick some ass

An artist sees and an artist does
But There's no art inside of you
You are on TV and I feel blue


I Found a way to reach success
It's what the show kindly suggests
I have to scare to be the best


I guess the only way I have
to prove to the world who I really am
is going out to kill a man


Yes this will be my goddamn chance
I'll reach success killing a man
and from the jail I'll kick some ass

I'm pretty sure that I won't fail
The goddamn show is my own aim
Let's go out and kill for fame!
Track Name: Feeling Fuzzy
Work hurts and doesn't make any sense
Sometimes people work just to be cooler
My work is to kill someone but I don't know how to commence

Why do you insist and keep running?
I just want to be funny

I've taken from the wardrobe my best leather jacket
I've put some pins on it just to be cooler
I'm Waiting at the bus stop for the right one to kill

Why do you insist and keep running?
I just want to be funny
I will cut your pretty throat in two

Looking for a victim for my success plan
I've found this rich girl that makes me feel cooler
I don't have to kill cause she's got money to spend

Tell me why do you say that you love me?
Now I feel a bit fuzzy
How do you know I'm a great artist too? Yeah

Now I feel a bit fuzzy
Track Name: Crawling Worm
An Horizon
Another bird is falling
Will you catch me if I fall?

A forest
another worm is crawling
Will you feed me if I crawl?

A black hole
another planet's dying
Will you save me if I explode?

A baby
another soul is living
Will you kill him for our love?

I Know
I Know there's something wrong, with me
I Know
There will be something wrong, forever
And It will break you

A Dying man
Another soul is leaving
Will you save me if I choke?

A Fire
Useless things are burning
Will you use me if I shall burn?

A body
Another woman kisses me
will you suffer if I'll be wrong?

A Dumb man
a million lies unspoken
will you accept me if I won't talk?
Track Name: Be My Bloody Baby
There is something I still don't know
If a cut throat is better than a stab
If it would be better to kill my girl
Or it would be better to kill myself

Too many choices, too many roads
and I'm a pro at choosing the wrong turn
being caster of my own disaster
Please master let my life go faster

She's my baby
Be my baby
Be my bloody baby
and maybe I will be your man

Time passes, that's no good
if there's someone who decides for you
No more lessons every day
No more worries, on my case

I've only tried to express myself
but she annihilates with no regrets
She's the one but not the one that I want
when I'm with her It's like being on my own

She's my baby
Be my baby
Be my bloody baby
and maybe I will be your man
Track Name: Become You
Living for tomorrow
Trying to be an Artist
searching for the mainline
Hiding being a fascist

Looking for tomorrow
Barking at the moon
The girl I wanted to kill
Will help me to get through

Destroy yourself for somebody
Won't ever be something good
I offered to all of you all my best
I suffered and now I have become you

Being so sensitive
Never helped anybody
that's the way she loves me
I'm trapped inside her heart

She planned everything
I'm pretty useless now
She will promote my music
She has bought my art
Track Name: Space
Space Space Space
Did I need all this space?
No more sun
shines on my face

Face Face Face
I'm obsessed by your face
Don't know how
It's in every place

Now I've learned
that I must not wish
and I mustn't adore
something that I don't know

I don't want
to spend my life with you
An artificial love
with artificial screws

Grace Grace Grace
All I need is some grace
from this life that spits in my face

Brace Brace Brace
I can't move with this brace
this Filthy ring
freezes all my days

Ti ho visto piangere mio Dio
Nei ruscelli avidi di mare
Nei torrenti impetuosi d'amare
Nelle cascate plananti petali di pesco
Nelle pozzanghere di luridi vicoli
Nelle fogne ove i sogni finiscono
Ma ora non piangere
ti offro la mia spalla amica
Finché il tempo lo vorra'
Perché tu che non puoi morire
Soffri per me in eterno

Now I know
that I was fine before
when I was waiting for
the joy of the world

I hardly tried
to be fine with you
but I don't like your scent
and your silly look

I hate your face
I hate the way you move
Your breath stench
and I hate our children too
Track Name: Let Me Feed
The lion of the grey plumage is shitting on me
The lion of the red plumage is eating with me
Big Nose is telling me to change direction
The suffocation won't let me feed

I Hope to be the winner
With the golden frog
The frog will be the runner with the holy toast
He lives inside my pillow and in his neighbourhood
The food that I eat from him is always good

I need food to live
And poison to kill
Emotions to feel
Lies to hide
tears to cry
for someone who dies

The cook with the Chinese eyes is bringing me down
Don't think that an ant cannot find his sound
The spirit of the ancient sweat is talking for me
Letters made of ink tonight let me feed

I need food to live
And poison to kill
Emotions to feel
Lies to hide
tears to cry
for someone who dies
Track Name: Tired
Now I feel so empty
Now I feel confused
If only I could say I love you too

You took me from your wardrobe
You put on your best shoes
I'm just a puppet that does what you do

If happiness is gold
And sadness for you is cool
Within this empty space I lie for you

Once I was a genius
You threw me among the stars
The light that I reflect is what you are

Every little baby
Is beautiful I know
But when they grow up Where do they go?

You chose to be a mom
I chose to be alone
The loss of death is like the gain of birth

If I could find someone
who won't believe in me
Will I be a new man?
Will something be wrong with me?

If I could find a way out
To leave you and set me free
Will I walk again
On the path of destiny?

All you have to do
is hope to be lucky
fingers crossed and then you plan your next move

An overrated thing in life
is being lucky
People hope that God could choose for them too

I Never gave a damn about being lucky
And now I stand and I don’t know what to do

Although people say that I’ve been born lucky
I'm desperate now and I don’t know what to… DO!

If I could find someone
who won't believe in me
Will I be a new man?
Will something be wrong with me?

If I could find a way out
To leave you and set me free
Will I walk again
On the path of destiny?
Track Name: Falling
Darling do you know the news
from today, you will feel good
Tomorrow I will be don't know where
maybe this, could leave you scared
Your perfection in disguise
could find a new love
you know, it works sometimes
‘Cause Now I know what it is
to be engaged
with my own disease

You were afraid for our children
afraid for all my sins
afraid for all the voices
that scream inside of me

I'm afraid of our children
Afraid of all your pills
If I stay for one more day I guess I'll break your fucking head in two

Do you really wanna know the truth?
It's that now I'm falling
and no one can hear me calling

I really don't know how to get through
'Cause now I'm falling
and no one could try to save me

The only thing I know
is that you bet on the wrong horse
Now I'm really afraid
to live with you
to be with you

Now I should really go
don't stop sleeping
and let me flow
Good bye and remember me
as the biggest mistake
that you ever loved

You were afraid for our children
afraid for all my sins
afraid for all the voices
that scream inside of me
I'm afraid of our children
Afraid of all your pills
Don't blame me if you stopped taking care of me

You were afraid for our children
afraid for all my sins
afraid for all the voices
that scream inside of me
I'm afraid of our children
Afraid of all your pills
If I stay for one more day I guess I'll break your fucking head in two

Do you really wanna know the truth?
It's that now I'm falling
and no one can hear me calling
I really don't know how to get through
'cause now I'm falling
and no one could try to save me

Do you really wanna know the truth?
It's that now I'm falling
and no one can hear me calling

The only thing that I know
is that you bet on the wrong horse
now I'm really afraid
to live with you
to be with you